2014

While thinking about my New Years resolutions I had a flurry of thoughts and emotions. I couldn't decided what my true feelings were regarding my health and weightloss; frustration, sadness, hope, excitement, fear, worthlessness, exhaustion, anger. I could go on and on. I knew I had to make changes but why must it be so hard. In 2013, I found myself making many excuses. I have been overweight since I was 12. I have lost weight in the past just to gain it back. I really don't eat unhealthy so I give myself other excuses; maybe I have hypothyroidism or a slow metabolism. My cholesterol and blood pressure is perfect. I have had my blood sugars checked multiple times (others are convinced I must be diabetic) and it is also perfect. Other than knee pain, I don't have any other physical restraints. I have bought multiple at home workout programs, workout equipment, joined multiple free programs, and I have a gym membership that I haven't used in a year. So I don't have an excuse. The problem is me. I lack motivation, knowledge, and have a huge fear of failing. Not of failing myself but failing others. So, as 2014 begins I am going to do it differently this time. 1. Take it slow- There is so much information out there. With pinterest, facebook, television shows, online programs, etc it easy to get overhelmed with information. I am going to take what works for me and leave the rest. 2. Take it 1 day at a time- I am not perfect. I am going to slip up sometimes but I won't get down on myself or use it as an excuse to give up. If I make a bad choice or have a bad day, I will make sure that my next choice is the correct one. I also want to enjoy those fun occasions so I may splurge every now and then but that is OK. 3. Don't be afraid to push myself- My husband has helped push me to do things I never thought I could do being overweight. I have rock climbed, ice climbed, mountain biked, hiked higher and longer, and much more. I want to take on more challanges and push myself to do better. 4. Set goals- I have found that if I schedule to get something done, I will get it done. 5. Plan- Life gets busy. I will plan out my weeks workouts and food being sure to include some fun. 6. Get Healthy for me- I have always worried about what others think of me and my weight. I don't feel I have ever been treated differently due to my weight but I do feel that people are watching and judging. I had lost 50 lbs last year and I frequently heard others say, "she is happier". I hadn't recognized it until I heard that statement. I am not happy being overweight. I want to be happy and healthy for me. In turn I will be a much better spouse, boss, employee, step-mother, sister, and daughter. 7. Hold myself accountable- As part of holding myself accountable I will be journaling in my blog and creating a facebook fitness account. When I mess-up I will admit it. If people are watching and reading I not only help keep myself accountable I may motivate others to get healthy. 8. Enjoy the little things: family, friends, nature, and life. So, here is to 2014 and a happy healthier me!!